got a long time din write blog again...i enjoy my vacation very much....trying my best to enjoy it before my result release date...in case it will spoil my mood...with a high chance...went out with my fren today..foo keat...we talked a lot...dunno y i felt like i und guyz very much..i mean in term of relationship...maybe after getting with wai ming, i started to learn to und guyz more...like wat way they think, wat they need and wat they dislike/like...almost all bingo...haha...my fren agreed with me for most...we had a great chat...but the bad thing was...i forgot to pay my fren lunch money...hahaha....then night went out with ling, yun and ming...we had a great great great chat also...i felt great that yun was willing to share her things with us...now only i knew how sinful am i...suddenly i felt that our conversation topic changed...not like last time...always just chui shui...now we shared a lot of our personal things, problems, family...i am very very happy...i think we will definitely continue until dunno wat time if ling's relatives din come and fetch her up...lolx...hope we can continue to have such a good chat next time! love u all! muax!!!
最近不知道为什么,睡觉前总会想会以前的我们...想着你当初追我时,想着那种心动的感觉..你牵起我手时,我心跳加速的感觉,就好像在做愧心事的感觉...第一次的害羞抱抱...第一次亲吻的感觉..真的很奇妙...心情莫名紧张得很...不知道哪个时候,这些感觉满满地减少了.....情侣在一起久了就酱...
ya...finally we both feel it...y? coz of ur sensitivity..im tired in making myself excited all the time..feeling talking..but..when u use ur that kind of attitude, talking to me..i really dun feel like talking anymore..cant even ask any question..y? u ask me y dun have excitement? y do i change? coz im tired...tats all..feel tired of ignoring those unhappy things and act as if im super excited and happy..dun ask me y..im just tired...theory applied to me, to talk about my fault..u r the best...when same theory applied to u, u always have ur way and rationale of defeating it..i have nothing to say...
ya..we quarreled again this week..we din get to chat much this week coz i was busy at night and got lots of discussion.. when i was done with my stuff, he ald gotta sleep..it was so hard for me, but i tried to control myself..not to be tempered like "da xiao jie"..however, we still ended up with quarrelling.. the reasons are super stupid..please dun laugh after reading this..He told me he wanted to watch the movie "skyfall" so much..james bones..so below was our conversation that day... Me: u wanna watch skyfall right? we watch it this week la..friday or sat night i also can.. WM: erm..no free movie ticket meh? i thought u said we will be watching paranormal activity 4 with ur bro? Me: oh..dun have paranormal activity 4 ald..all down..we r too late..and my bro watched skyfall ald..so we din watch ald..maybe wait for other movies lo.. WM: oh..ok..then watch lo.. Me: i think i have voucher for the movie ticket le..last time when i applied for debit card one..but not sure le..gotta check.. WM: oh..ok...u check..see whether can use it on friday one.. Me: ok lo..but i think it is in another cinema wor..wanna book tickets online first? friday many ppl..but i think the voucher cannot be used to book online.. WM: u check and c how first.. Me: or we just buy online..dun bother the voucher la.. WM: u check first.. Me: y must use voucher wor.. WM: i thought u said wanna save money? i got bit overspent this month.. Me: oh..ok lo..if my voucher cannot be used..then dun watch liao..save money.. WM: y everytime u wanna say so negative geh? Me: i just assume ma.. During the conversation above, i was in tv lounge..just finished online project discussion..at this time, there were a pair of couple came in and wanted to watch tv..so i decided to keep my stuff and moved back to room and only continued my conversation with WM. Me: dear..someone wanna watch tv..i keep my stuff first..later settled down i called u back.. WM: wat? u answer me first..y u wanna say till so negative.. Me: let me keep my stuff first k? others wanna watch tv..and i talk very loud here..feel weird that others listen to our conversation..i call u back later k? (it is super near, i think 5 minutes will do) WM: wat? u answer la..y must hang up oh? answer me first..y u everytime wanna say things till so negative.. Me: (maggie's mind) @#$%^&*#$%^ let me keep my stuff first k? i cant keep my stuff..i called u back..very soon.. WM: (WM's mind) #$%^&*$%^& y cannot answer? By this time, i ald left my stuff in the tv lounge...and stepped out.. Me: aiyo..y cannot le me settled down first oh.. WM: (hang up the phone) Me: (maggie's mind) WTF! So, let me conclude..basically, y do we quarrel? coz i thought he wanna watch the skyfall very much..usually he asked me for movie one..if u r my very good frenz, u should know that i seldom go cinema one...>< ya..i did say..we must save money now..therefore, i limit ourselves to go to restaurant for only once per month..usually will go food court..even if we shopping in shopping mall, we will only go food court..if not really will overspend.. but then i thought u wan to watch that movie very much, so i ask u to go lo..if dun book online, friday night movie really sold off fast.. i started to wonder..wat did i do wrong? i just made assumptions..where this is nature of me, nature of Maggie Chong..not purposely say it for qi hua or watever.. i really dunno how to change..i started to think..am i suppose to say things carefully in front of him? i thought sometime..couple is like very very best frenz...we will feel easy to say anything in front of them..coz we know each other very well...and we will understand sometime if the sentence is intended to make joke or wat..i really duno how..tats y i posted status in fb... i really feel very tired..dunno wat to do...i know he sacrifised lots for me..so do i..and it is indeed super hard for me..to adapt to the environment, being alone..having meals alone in school...no room..so i could only eat in canteen..alone..for every meal..it is tough for gal..especially for a gal who afraid of being alone and loneliness..trying hard not to blame u..not to angry u..coz u replied fb msg late..at night..think that u need time for ur own..although i need someone to talk to very much..need ur care very much..tried hard to control myself..and wait for weekends so that i could meet u.. guyz wont understand this one..forever..:(
A great page for Nov? Definitely not!! I am overwhelm recently..coz final exam is just around the corner..and I have a lot of assignments, projects as well as presentations...I also have a test tomorrow, which weights 20% of the module.. and yet I finish revising..aiz...One of my secondary school best friends came to Sg to work...Personally I am very happy that she came..Coz i will have more companion in Sg..however..it is totally different than what i expected..the first time, she wanted me to go out..it is ok..coz semester just started...the second time, she came to sg for job interview and asked me to go out..ok also..since I am not so busy yet... It seems to be getting unreasonable for me.. Wai Ming said.."y ur fren like that, expect u to go out and skip lecture? what kind of friend is this? I thought true fren should really care for each other.."then i dun bother..not that i dun bother..is that i dun wan to bother..i dun wan to accept the real fact... then i told him.."oh ya..i think i will be letting her to sleep on my bed and i will sleep on the floor" Wai Ming said.."har? y?if it is me, i dun bother..i will just sleep on the bed"..personally, i think it is ok for me..not often, visitors ma...but then things came up differently..before i told her that she will be sleeping on the bed today, she already requested me to do so..this made me feel....really really bad..like wat wai ming said was totally right..aiz... and now..she finally came to Sg for work...and I am really overwhelm with lots of work..although sg is not big, but without car...i need an hour plus to go to her place..i understand that being new to Sg, she will definitely need someone to accompany with, maybe to do some administrative stuff together..like buying sim card, groceries and so on...oh please, with 2 group projects, 1 individual assignment, 2 test and 1 presentation on the same week is not an easy stuff!! maybe im selfish..but i thought she will understand..but end up, through our conversation, i think she dun und...aiz.. she was my best best fren last time..but now i wondered...why were we best friend last time? I really cannot understand what she is thinking..am i wrong? can someone tell me? is it that im too realistic?
伟民最近告诉我说，我应该会和我nbs那班朋友一起住。说真的，我已经早就做最坏的打算了。早已经预料到这个可能性。告诉自己说要大方点，不要去那么介意，不要那么多疑，他应该会自己看着办的。虽然还是会担心，毕竟本来就是个我一直觉得有威胁的人。现在要和伟民做housemate,一定担心啊。一直提醒自己要大方些，如果事情真的要发生，无论怎样阻止，它终究要发生。
随着伟民的毕业离开这个学校，加上朋友们去台湾做交换生，我慢慢发觉自己变了。。以前的我，喜欢和朋友吃饭，如果一个人独自在食堂吃饭，我会觉得很不自在。。现在的我，反而很多时候你想和朋友一起吃饭，都喜欢自己一个人坐着，慢慢吃。。。或许随着环境的改变我不得不变吧。。