the ever ever happy day for this few weeks...im so happy n enjoy...so happy that many of my frenz rmb my bday...really happy...juz a wish i satisfy...but wil be more satisfy if get gift la...kaka....unluckily my family all forget about it..aiz...but nvm la..coz they busy for d cafe stuff...specialy thx for tak hao, choon seng, swee leong, hui xuan, yik mun...for the present...n also thx for all wished me...."too many"..kaka....so cant list down all...really enjoy...although this year my bday v din go out...to celebrate on the exact day...n i stil have to tuition...from 4 to 9...but...i enjoy so much...feeling so touch.....beside that wanna specially say thanx to my daughter...cheng cheng...so touch...during tuition i received a msg...she asked me to check mail..said wanna ask me some account ques...sure not la i think...coz i think she is now much high level than me...i guessed is bday wishes or wat....when i opened it n c...wao....she made a card for me...i really so happy.....n touching neh.....really wanna thx u all...did so many for me on this special day...i appreciate it....thx....=p
feeling wanna vomit without any reason...
swt...help la...i cut n straighten my hair...aiyo...thought wanna change my hair style...but now make my face look fatter n more chubby...swt lo..help...ugly la..
this few days considered a bit bit busy...coz helping my dad for the coffee shop stuff...food testing n all those things...i stil got online...juz that dunno wat happen to my msn...cant log in...kaka....only got 10 days more then my dad's coffee shop wil open....scare scare oh...i also dunno hope to cope wif my time....1st of dec wil open...got lots tuition tim..crash wif that....try to arrange c how....wanna go for tuition but...(i know mayb im not so important la)mayb my dad need my help...coz he dun wan to hire too many ppl first...hope everyone can come n support my dad's coffee shop ya...^^
最近我才深深地体会到。。原来我们生存在这个世界上，有很多事情都是出乎我们意料之外的。。。我们根本没有办法可以去预测一个人的想法。。我们也无法去控制别人的嘴，他们爱说什么就说什么。。根本轮不到我们来控制。。。有时有些人，一时不小心，漏了嘴，说了些难听的话。。。可能他自己会觉得不所谓吧，但听在心里的人却是多么的难受，是那个人怎么去体会也体会不了的。。。 但就是有许多人，就算是体会着感受，却还是要毫不考虑自己使用的言语，去伤害他人。。。我个人觉得，这是个非常可悲的事。。。所以，人要学会把该说的是说出来，把不该说的事收在心底。。。非常非常直接的人一定会得罪人。。。说一想要成为一个人缘好的人，首先最得学会甜言蜜语。。。还有幽默。。。。^^这是我个人的想法。。。
wao...i juz went to genting for 2 day n 1 nite...quite enjoy actually..but not that syok like i went wif my gang of frens in jan...kaka....coz yeaterday i went almost holidays..many ppl la....need to queue up for so long time...rain suddenly n sun so big suddenly...i got SUN BURN...SHIT!!!
luckily now ok ald...yesterday my face red red one...like mabuk ald...swt....i wonder sometime i speak something is it so gao xiu? my cousins they laugh nonstop....when v celebrate one of my cousin birthday in genting...i juz tell some cold jokes but they can laugh nonstop...swt....
then i went to sungai wang n bought something...kaka...sun glasses....nice bo? kaka......feeling like...holidays for long time ald..kaka...an enjoyable trip it's consider....but...i feel not syok coz i only have d pirate ship for once....i wanna scream enuf enuf to forget all the sadness....aiyo..but my cousin so scare...almost...cry...nvm la...keke...^^
today i ponteng school again...actually holidays ald start...for me only..kekek...i help my parents....clean up the cafe...only wash plates...n cup...ald used 4 hours...more...today only i realised..suddenly realised...my dad becum older n older....looking at his face....n my mum also....ald..51 years old...stil have to work so hard for this...for our family...n all of their children....really touch nia....that's y i always try to help them...(although i dun think i help lots)...juz doing my best....haha..... i think....2008 this year....it is the first year....i go to genting twice in a year..kaka....friday i wil go to genting wif my cousin...so happy n excited nia...but sure not so excited if compared to last time i went wif my gang...kaka...but stil happy la...coz i thought this holidays i wil juz tuition n work only...kaka...i can go to sungai wang ar...blablabla...keke.... SHOPPING!!!!!cant stand it? gals is like that one ma...if u always go parade or jusco one...then u wil know the feeling...so sienz....i heard others said sungai wang there sold clothes very cheap..kaka...so happy...^^
wao...today is a special day...coz my dad cafe they wil make a food testing gathering...wif those frenz n relatives...i asked my frenz to go along too..^^ i think wil be busy...when i woke up...i was in bad mood...coz...ald 9am...n no one wake me up...my parents juz went out to d cafe...i was thinking myself...is it..i m useless...can help nothing..that's y mum dun wan me to go n help? i sms wif my fren..jx...he consoled me that..mayb mum dun wan me too tired...^^ around 11 something...my relative came to my house n fetch my cousin n i to my dad&his fren cafe...wao...my fren ald reach nia...it was a mess...in the cafe....many ppl...but many i dunno...i think is my dad frenz or my dad fren frenz...i dun bother about it..i start to help this n that....(actually nothing to help)...i wondered y there was a mess??? actually this was becoz...my dad fren children went to the kitchen...make 'ais kacang' with the ice machine...it was damn dangerous...(coz they r juz kids)....i really scared they wil get hurt...but their mum was over there...i can worry nothing... it was a mess...becoz...spoon was here...fork was there...chopstick was here...bowl was there...that's y...in addition they haven wash those utensils...n fork spoon bowl n all that....i help them to keep the things neat...n mop here n there...actually juz helping bit...so that there is not so messy la...my frens came...sorry nia...i got no time to serve n chat wif them...coz i cant let my parents busy n no one help them out rite? hope u all und lo... erm...my mum cooked laksa,chee cheong fun,char xiu,'ais kacang',red bean soup...that's all la...erm...quite lots comments for her...i mean bad comments...but overall i think it is juz small matter...coz she seldom cook...she wil improve lots one...i know mum is in big stress n tension...coz she is the big big n main chief...but i think my mum can do it one...becoz nothing she dunno...kaka...this is my mum... hope fast fast come la december...so that my bros back..n help my parents...give more comments to my parents wif their work experience..so that everything wil becum smoother...kaka....jia you oh....busy busy holidays....come to eat nia...welcome welcome...^^ stupid..kaka...
today my fren n i so stupid....keep on playing in the class....=.=''' she keep on wanna gu chik me...swt.....then v BATTLE...kaka...sure...i win...due to the size... aiz...sometime feeling...growing so tall for wat...it is so cham being misund by others... becoz of my height n especially of my body size....not consider huge..but is big.... actually i always bullied by my fren...especially those small size one...not saying my best fren gang la..i know they r juz always taking joke wif me...i said is those fren who r not so fren...=.=''' y? y? juz becoz of the body size then wil make others think that i m bullying those small size...swt... juz like an old woman n a young guy...all ppl wil juz believe the old woman rite? if the old woman really bad one then how? everything can happen... wao...today is damn tiring....coz my dad cafe is opening soon...so i have to help him out...help my parents clean the cafe...i juz unwrap the tables n chairs which cover by newspaper n string...i ald feel tired...n mop the floor as well....clean here n there....can imagine how tired r my parents...erm...really hope their cafe wil success lo...^^ this sunday wil having a small gathering wif fren n relatives...food testing n take photo of those food...i have to help my mum also...erm...although actually i cant help much...i wil try my best...becoz i m the only child now in ipoh...now juz waiting for holidays...doing nothing... jia you jia you....i can one...dun worry mum..i wil try my best..kaka... today i get know my position in class..juz like wat i almost expected...i dropped until the 4th in the class...from 1st to 4th...swt....but im not so sad la...coz...i really din put much effort this time..so bad...i juz keep on study econ..becoz i feel that it is my worst sub...n i dislike it..so i had to force myself to study..kaka... erm...feel this from other corner...yeah!!!! next year i got not so much stress...n can improve more le...stupid rite...kaka.....positive maggie...^^ well done...
today i feel i'm so hardworking oh...doing account assignment nonstop in the class...kaka...dunno oh..mayb holidays is coming..suddenly got mood...coz i must finish assignment fast fast be4 it becum a big big n tall mountain...i told my fren...a student suppose to study...becoz this is our task...being a student...^^ i set 65 marks for every paper as the aim...for nex year test...coz i wan to improve myself...did u hear be4? the big enermy is urself...so i must beat down the old maggie first...then only i got the power to beat others who r better than me...^^ feeling im useless then i should work harder...to show that im not useless...im not a failure...is a success that wil happen soon...i know if i compare wif others...i wil not be the failure...juz lazy...but lazy wil make me bcum a failure soon...so i must cut off my laziness.... i had made a choice to study f6 myself...so i hv to do it good..well...i dun wan to end up my 3/4 years in college...wasting one year...n money...decided to study f6...i expect myself to go in local or foreign uni...i must do it...it is my wish n my parents' wish also...the only daughter n the only children who haven study in uni....i hope i can follow my bros step to study in singapore uni...i know it is hard... that's y i must use this holidays wisely...wasting no time...u can...maggie...juz be u...n not the lazy maggie...
i feel myself is more n more no use...useless...i m bad in everything...result..studies...even communication skill i cant make it good...last time i stil remember i can make fren wif other quite well...but now...aiz...getting worse n worse...i cant bear wif those i dun like...not like wat i did last time...although i dun like them...i stil can bear wif them... i m bad in everything...thought that transfering school n transfering from science to art...i can do it better...but...actually now i realise i m getting more n more lazy...affected by the environment..actually all these r my excuse...they r realllllllyyy bad reason... it is not an excuse for getting such bad result...it is not an excuse for lazying n lazying... y? i chose this...is it a right way for me to go? or i already made a wrong choice from the start...wil destroy my whole life? i know it affect our frenship already...aiz...so stupid..studying in such school also cant get good result...dun say if u study in sam tet...already can imagine how badly ur result wil be... STUPID CHONG MEI QI stand in front of the mirror...then u know how badly u r...in every sense...
actually sometime i will ask myself...y i put so many efforts on my blogging..=.=''' mayb juz myself reading it rite...but...i feel like...blogging really can let me release my tension,stress,n even anger...sadness...i und my fren more through her blog...so i hope other can und me more through my blog also...it is a rite thing.. i ponteng school again today...coz i really feel so sienz stay at school...the class....sienz until i can asleep...i always have the feeling...lonely in the crowd...n i dunno y....i tried to find out...but...i get nothing...mayb mature already..n think too much..always make myself so sad n angry without reason...stupid rite? getting lazier n lazier...wonder y like this...i lost the power...i lost the spirit....i lost the relationship...swt....sienz na...i wil fak mou if continue like this....HELP ME>>>!!!!
wao...lots day din update already...swt....sorry nia fren...coz i m tiring editing my blogskin...spent me lotz time coz i m a com idiot...really...swt....hope u all like it...^^ give some comments ya...