today v go to parade to celebrate ah ming(one of my best fren gang) birthday...wao....seem like a long long time v din go out the whole gang...actually not whole gang...many else din out...T.T actually today not so good mood de....but i try to control myself....coz it is very difficult to gather our best fren all together....
wao....v date 12noon n all late...include me myself also....i 12.07 only reach la...the earliest is yunyi lo....very punctual one..sorry oh yunyi...then v go to kopitiam n have lunch while waiting for them...=.= aiz....then v go to buy ming de birthday gift...v all share...^^ hope ming will like it oh....
then v keep on lepak...many of them go home early le...so sienz....aiz....v go to cold storage to buy ice cream to eat...coz got promotion...cheaper...wao...nice....^^ that wil make me fatter...aiz...
i meet my old monitor in 5S4 last time...haha...camenn....wao...with her bf....hand in hand.....so jealous...n happy also la....actually...coz she can find her true love....hope she wil xing fu oh...
i am so sad....feeling my fren...treat me not that good like i was in samtet school....T.T i appreciate the frenship...i dunno wat she think....once she see me then ejek nonstop...i am so depress....n down....i stil remember v r best best fren last time....even during secondary school...she sat beside me for 4 years already....only form 2 she din sit beside me...becoz v r not the same class...the other year she also sat beside me....v go through so many problems....n und each other better...tolerate with each other to maintain our frenship....i am so sad that this frenship is farther....T.T i dun wan that....i am totally sad from my deep heart....actually i know our gang of fren wil not as fren as last time as v r different school n meet each other less...but it is too fast like wat i thought....i dun wan...think n think tears already drop...
is it i change jo or wat? or i did not do good enough...sometime i feel so lonely...feel that there is no one beside me....no one support me....it is so tired n difficult to face n solve problem alone....if i did something wrong then plz tell me...i wont know..i wil try to change it if i can...plz dun leave me.....frenz....are always the second important beside family.....i hope i only think too much...our frenship din change be4....n wil last 4ever n ever...
it is an amazing day....^^ coz....i am so nervous today oh...aiz....today i am playing truant oh...coz got car test n the time crash...actually last time be4 spm i also always ponteng sekolah already....=p i am so nervous.....i reach there at around 8am....after registeration, v all gather there....haha....i am so talkative...i know a fren over there....pgs gal....17 years old only...n so lucky....i met wing yi...my primary school classmate....^^ v all chat nonstop...(actually only me bili bala nonstop la).... after hearing the taklimat given,then v start being tested by calling number tat given to us...=.= i saw my number was written on the white board....that means wil have to go 4 the test(on the road) soon...=.= suddenly my number was called...oh....have to test naik bukit first....so nervous la...got a guy be4 us...sei fo so many times....he is too nervous...=.= my mood gets better...no becoz i am so sui...other fail then i got good mood la...but becoz if i fail jo also dun have so fish ma..haha..but luckily i din fail in that section...haha...then after go back the place that v gather....i was called again to test the tiga penjuru n parking....pass also...^^ actually i scare the most is the test on the road....i scare that too too much..coz i always sei fo de....aiz...dunno wat luck la....always meet lorry today....dunno y got so many lorries block my way.....=.= luckily i din sei fo along the way...but....the stupid pegawai...cross me in several section...it is a she....aiz...dunno wat her eyes used for...=.= some actions i did but she din see it....aiz...nvm la....the most important thing is i PASS......!!!!! haha....yeah...
i dun like other call me PORK CHOP or AH GUA....=.= coz i am not both of that either... aiz....but if really take joke then nvm de...i am not that small gas de.... today so sui ar......my ji mui...n gor gor... ='( the sifu pull me oh...until whole of my hand red jo....so painful.....dun have ppl pull me so hard be4....sobz......sui sifu....luckily fi xuan n michelle help me balas dendam already...haha.....the sui sifu stil act like angry us wo....=.= actually all this v 2 know de...blekz.... aiz...after holidays seem like lazier to study jo....especially econ...dunno y hate econ so much......actually the chapter in front i stil und de...but after that...becoz i transfered to acs late...n lost jo...the chapter behind...my econ tuition teacher haven teach le..so dun und...haha...n lazy to study also..=.= after school start my blog seem like shorter much much already...=.=
today really sienz ar....haha...aiz...nothing to do at home..dun have tuition either...i wemt to cdentist...checked my teeth today..wao...so scare....coz i think i have a long long time din go to clinic already...as i had made an appointment...so very fast to be my turn...i dun like the clinic assistant..as she taught so badly to my mum....aiz....she asked information from my mum but my mum answered wrongly....coz confusing about her question..as i went with my cousin...her service is so bad..... after checking my teeth...the dentist said my teeth have to be 'repair'(dunno wat that call in english =p) wao.....it is painful....but i think it is much more painful if my teeth have to be cabut..=.= then my parents fetch us to go to kfc...haha....is it very geng? after repairing my teeth that go n eat kfc..haha...i use one side of my mouth to eat only...=.= delicious...cheezy wedges..wao...so nice...i like that....haha....my gor gor so sui...said i wil get fatter i eat so much...haha....i know de...haha...even my real brother last time called me fei qi de...haha... after i went home..i was so hardworking...haha...i did my account tuition homework..coz this holidays week i was doing nothing at all...i did it nonstop...until there is no electricity..aiz...dunno y this week my house area dun have electricity(juz for a while la)..already the second time in this week.....i felt so scare....coz later my parents all wil be out...n my cousin wil go 4 her tuition... T.T i lighted up many candles....be4 my cousin went 4 her tuition...actually...juz for play la...then...i after i lighted up so many candles....=.= my house got electricity back oh...=.= wao....shock!! n angry...haha....my cousin laughed at me...=.= y la...paying so many effort to light up the candles...aiz...really oh...... aiz....suddenly miss my fren...in other school n colleges....my best fren...i look at our photo(da tou tie)....feeling like...distance really the problem....seem like our frenship not that good like last time already..=.= my sam tet fren...best fren..aiz...-.- miss u all..........T.T few weeks later,ah pan n yanyu(2 of my best fren gang)...they wil go to russia to continue their studies...so far oh...dunno when only wil come back...MISS U ALL...my fren...
aiz....yesterday i cant sleep...i also dunno y...dunno is becoz my fren's problem make me think alot or mayb i scare of my car driving skills so much....make me sleep late although i lye on the bad...this morning i get up very early..becoz i got my car drive learning time from 8 to 10....n the pretest is after that....i changed my teacher....coz the clerk told me that the teacher who taught me last time got some personal reason n therefore he cant teach me jo...then change another teacher teach me...i dun like this guy....becoz he smokes...i dun like that..... today is the day which i sei fo the most time....from the day i learnt car driving until now...i feel so sad.depress...n disappointed to myself..aiz.....i always feel so nervous...until i feel myself dun have confident jo...aiz....but luckily i pass my pretest...but stil have to add on 2 hours...learning...aiz...rm 30 fly jo... n...becoz of this test...i cant go for my econ tuition...T.T after that at 12.30pm...i went to the econ tuition centre there...coz my mum have to fetch along my fren...chee ying..then v went to the hotel excelsor...to have our lunch there...old kopitiam...inside the hotel...v chat chat chat nonstop...n luckily this make me feel better...my mood is better..haha....coz i know if i think much...it also din help in my car driving...i have to admit that...my driving skill is really really bad... v chat nonstop...like the water flowing from the tap..wont stop de...until around 2 sumthing then only v go 4 the maths tuition...i am quite happy that...i like maths...!!!becoz i lost this feeling long long time ago...i think mayb this is becoz i am not paying attention to my math teacher in school..the way they teach is not interesting at all!!! n it is so dull...i dun like that.. i stil remembered i like add math so much last time although i dun like to do exercises...lazy...haha...but i feel satisfy when i can do the question..i hope this feeling...can continue...until the end of form 6...hehe...MATHS!!!
this year....i thought i wil be more mature...as i got work experience...i met a lot ppl...i went for ns...n many many things else....but actually i know i changed a lot.....i remembered...last time...maggie is a quiet gal for the strangers....but a noisy gal for the frenz...haha....because i was too shy to talk to those strangers...especially guyz....juz dunno how to communicate with them...dun get surprise, my fren...although now i talk a lot with u all...i mean those guyz...i was really a quiet gal for guyz last time...juz dunno wat shall i talk with them...but after i worked as a waitress in a restaurant...i becum more talkative...until now....when i open my mouth i wil talk nonstop...=.= now i am a sifu for my gor gor...actually my communication skill not that good only....but i dun like quiet environment when i am with a stranger or normal fren(not that fren)...sometime when a person's look is not so nice(like me) then mai have more skill...so that can get more fren...like those leng chai leng lui....automaticaly wil get lot frenz de...coz many ppl like to be fren with leng de ppl... but i feel that i really have to improve in my eq sometime rather than iq...although both of these also quite low...haha...sometime i get bad mood suddenly...n talk badly to my frenz...i also dunno y...mayb sometime cant stand the way they talk gua....especially when i am stil in bad mood....i dun like to talk that time...coz i know when i open my big mouth...then i wil make other not syok or even not happy...so i wil keep quiet...but when i really have to open mouth n talk...i sure they wil not syok me jo...T.T sorry oh....everytime..i bad mood..then make u all not so happy also....sorry... i start to hate myself more jo.....feel like i like to do something wrong first then only say sorry to frenz...i dun like that...sometime i wil ask myself...y...y be4 i do something wrong..i din think about it first...until everytime i hurt others then only i say sorry....coz i dun think sorry got use at all....mayb sorry can be used in the first n second times...but for me....it becum useless...after that....becum...sorry means that..u know u did wrong this times..n u try to improve it..n dun repeat the same thing....then wat for everytime u did the wrong thing n say sorry to the person...USELESS....i hate u...MAGGIE CHONG... get a better way to change urself..now....!!! gambateh...
holidays start...everytime be4 holidays i wil do my plan....for example...this holidays i wan to do revision..wan to go shopping with fren...n other other...this holidays i also plan for a lot...coz i juz transfered to new school ACS for juz around 2 weeks i think...the economy teacher taught quite far already...need time to catch up le...about 2 chapter...so...i decide to finish it up in this short one-week holidays....but until now...until today...tuesday...dun say the revision..even the homework i also haven touch...@.@ wat a lazy gal i am...haha....that's y sometime i prefer school days more..because i only wil study on school days...i also dunno y...dun ask me... aiz..my fren in sam tet, those study biology...they got a trip to cameron highlands le...they ask me to join them but i din..coz mayb feel like a lot of things to do during this holidays...n dun wan to end up my 2 days over there....they r going to catch bugz for investigation or wat...i SCARE insects...n...my parents dun allow me to go...=.= they give those bad reason say wat now is stil ghost month...n my mum said it is not fun at all becoz she und me so well that i scare insectz.....so end up i juz can reject my fren.... my gor gor also got go le...of course not the real gor gor la...=.= is my old classmate but i call him gor gor...(i also forget when start)...of course he is older than me la...if not i also call him as my didi already..haha...he also got go le....n i force him to buy me a souvenir over there....actually i am not so bad la...juz taking joke with him....haha...feeling meaningful....if my fren...go 4 a trip...n buy me a souvenir...automatically...i wil feel so touch even though it is juz a cheap key chain or wat....feeling like he or she treat me so good n important until he or she go 4 a trip he or she also remember me this fren le....so touch oh...T.T hope all my fren who go for the trip wil take k of themselves...coz this few days always rain la...hope they can enjoy their trip lo...wat i can do is stay at home only...T.T