LiFe...

this year....i thought i wil be more mature...as i got work experience...i met a lot ppl...i went for ns...n many many things else....but actually i know i changed a lot.....i remembered...last time...maggie is a quiet gal for the strangers....but a noisy gal for the frenz...haha....because i was too shy to talk to those strangers...especially guyz....juz dunno how to communicate with them...dun get surprise, my fren...although now i talk a lot with u all...i mean those guyz...i was really a quiet gal for guyz last time...juz dunno wat shall i talk with them...but after i worked as a waitress in a restaurant...i becum more talkative...until now....when i open my mouth i wil talk nonstop...=.= now i am a sifu for my gor gor...actually my communication skill not that good only....but i dun like quiet environment when i am with a stranger or normal fren(not that fren)...sometime when a person's look is not so nice(like me) then mai have more skill...so that can get more fren...like those leng chai leng lui....automaticaly wil get lot frenz de...coz many ppl like to be fren with leng de ppl... but i feel that i really have to improve in my eq sometime rather than iq...although both of these also quite low...haha...sometime i get bad mood suddenly...n talk badly to my frenz...i also dunno y...mayb sometime cant stand the way they talk gua....especially when i am stil in bad mood....i dun like to talk that time...coz i know when i open my big mouth...then i wil make other not syok or even not happy...so i wil keep quiet...but when i really have to open mouth n talk...i sure they wil not syok me jo...T.T sorry oh....everytime..i bad mood..then make u all not so happy also....sorry... i start to hate myself more jo.....feel like i like to do something wrong first then only say sorry to frenz...i dun like that...sometime i wil ask myself...y...y be4 i do something wrong..i din think about it first...until everytime i hurt others then only i say sorry....coz i dun think sorry got use at all....mayb sorry can be used in the first n second times...but for me....it becum useless...after that....becum...sorry means that..u know u did wrong this times..n u try to improve it..n dun repeat the same thing....then wat for everytime u did the wrong thing n say sorry to the person...USELESS....i hate u...MAGGIE CHONG... get a better way to change urself..now....!!! gambateh...