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wat v live for? i always ask myself....i feel tat sometime v might meet someone who is fake....really....fake until u hate him or her so much...but u can nothing to him or her....the feeling is bad...haha... really feel so disappointed oh...although i considered as ok in this holidays..since i got do some maths ques...but i feel helpless....like..dunno ask who...when i face some ques which i dunno how to answer...aiz...miss my bro so much...last time i stil can ask them...especially my little bro...but now he went studied...in singapore...no one help me la....school teacher cannot depend on him one...n tuition teacher dunno y hate our art students quite much...juz hope someone can answer my ques when i dunno how to solve....T.T

now in cc...i curi curi drove my dad car out le...so fish la...i stil not so familiar wif manual car...juz now i sei fo on d road n so fish ya...=.= life now stil consider quite nice de...sometime i wonder whether is it tat i din go into our class gang so not so enjoy study in acs...xuan, is our prob n not them...nor d school...they r funny...i watched d pic..they took stupid la...in d facebook of 6AA..my high school life is going to finish...so sad...indeed sad....i can feel d tension is getting bigger since d STPM is coming...soon....hope by using this holidays wisely i can catch up a lot....really..hope so...so i think i wil online more seldom...:'( sorry la fren....sorry indeed...i wil try my best to update my news...keke...

sorry ya....na...foo keat....i got update my blog...din lie this time...juz retype wat i wrote in my hp last time coz i cant online.... Yesterday i did a very fish thing during my tuition time-i cried...many frenz saw it n i think it is indeed shameful n i really cant control myself even though i tried to do so...no doubt im a emotional ppl...every thing will be showed on my face...but all start becoz my fren said tat for sure she is thinner than me..(i know im stupid n childish)n in addition i was moody yesterday..bit sad la for her words but i know she juz pulled my legs as v always do tat....i know for sure my action had frightened her n she sure blamed herself lot for tat time....but actually it juz d right time for me to break down...i was tension i was stressed up...reason? as im a ppl who wil juz show sadness n happiness all d time on my face...it is really a tough task for me to keep all d things in my deep hearts n eventually i cried...recently i face lots prob...i think the biggest reason is tat i dunno wat m i doing..i cant forgive myself for my laziness but yet not trying to change myself... i think i can say tat i hate myself for being tat...i got such a big ambition wanna go into singapore uni wif scholarship so tat wil not increase my parents burden...however even me myself cannot feel d efforts tat im putting in...mayb im not putting in efforts...tat's wat i wonder...i hate myself for being so useless.i promised one of my frenz to help her in maths however i myself not even doing well then how can i help her?i feel hopeless...there is not much time left but im stil wasting it without making any planning for it..i feel tat im a failure..not either pretty or rich but yet lazy..im a failure in every sense...getting no1 in class during monthly test does mean much for me...i din feel im proud either...becz for me it is juz luck...n not my result of putting efforts...or mayb others r not serious during monthly test then only i can get no1....who can help me? no ppl besides me myself..i know this...god ar...plz help me to solve this prob...i juz wan to finish all d things tat i promised myself n my frenz i wil do with excellent result... maggie chong, do something right now or else u wil regret in d rest of ur life...

wao...got a long long time again not updating my blog...really sorry..keke.... erm...lotz of things happen recently...juz finished MUET n face midexam soon.....so sienz.. i dunno y r the teachers looking down to our art students...plz la...i was a science student last time plz....wat art students got bad attitude? how can u juz judge ppl juz by looking at one or few of them? i dun feel my attitude is bad...juz mayb not tat good...art students got dignity also plz... tat's y make me to becum a good art student...becoz i dun wan to be looked down by those teachers who r juz putting their thought to us(art students).... another reason is tat...really feel tat money is so important suddenly...really very important....u know tat i almost get crazy without money...mayb u wil feel tat im mata duitan...but if one day...u really dun have money...u wil know tat...d feeling of unsafe...hopeless of future....tat's y make me to be motivated...becoz i wan to get scholarship....mayb u wil think tat im too greedy becoz my result may not allow me to do tat...but y one cant have her own dream or ambition...i wan to go into singapore uni wif scholarship provided...to reduce my parents burden..... feel im mature ald? ahah....i think so...but saying is always easier than doing....those commitments....juz try my best all d way...during this coming holidays i muz work hard...not only making myself better...but also help others to get better....i blif i can do it...becoz im CHONG family child....kaka.....

以前我一直觉得自己的人缘还不错(或许只限与女生).直到最近我终于醒了,原来在我最伤心最失落的时候,我想要找一个人来倾诉都没有.我觉得我很失败,做人做到像我这样还真不容易,表面上很和蔼可亲,实际上却没有人愿与我交出真心相处.我不奢望什么,只希望有个人能够真心诚意的听我细诉我的烦恼.　 我有时会问我自己,为什么我要忍耐,为什么我要忍气吞声?全都只因一个理由.我不想失去人生中其中一样非常重要的东西.就是朋友.就因为我在乎她.所以忍耐,容忍她的缺点和我对她的不满.　 但谁不知道人在做任何东西时都有界线?我也一样.一次两次的容忍累积下来可以造成多大的伤害?加上那人的得寸进尺的话,很有可能会一发不可收拾.　以前的我,就算知道朋友利用我,沾我便宜都好,我也可以忍耐,因为我知道只要她们不是为了利用我而跟我做朋友就好了.但现在的我不知是不是看东西都看得太复杂了,脑筋转太多了,使到现在陷入这样的状况.　 到底我该怎么做?继续容忍吗?如果我一开始就不容忍的话,那别人就不会说我变了,变得不好了.真的是这样的吗?谁能告诉我,我该怎么做?

wao...i really got a long long time din update my blog...really sorry everyone...my frenz....im not purposely do tat...but i really got no time to online..since i cant online at home...impossible i go to cc always rite? keke...hope u all can forgive me..keke.... now i really realised how important is d maturity....i found that it is very important when i had problem wif my x....n soon....i found tat it is more important when i listened to d problem happened in my dad cafe....d him...who is him? aiyo...if u r my close fren u sure know one...coz i always complain to my frenz about him.... plz......plz........dun misund tat i like him...no.....no way.....unless tat i blind..kaka...i think if i blind i also wont choose him....coz he is not my cup of tea...he is not mature...in every sense...OMG it is true...he dunno how to differentiate d importance of things....which one is more important n which one is not...aiz....he feels like face is the most important among d others....wat a stupid thinking....receive other idea not show tat u r stupid not showing tat u r not capable...not show tat u r lose.....but stay at d same point without any improvement...it indicates tat u r useless.....doing nothing although there is someone willing to help u....stupid rite? time really makes someone to be more mature....however...sometime when v face some problems or someone....suddenly v wil become very childish in solving problems...give some time to urself...relax....throw away all d old memory...use d common sense n d maturity u have now...to face again d problems...u found tat....u r so childish sometime..kaka...coz im d one...i dunno u all la.... ok lo...quite long la...continue next time...everyone...have ur life in a fanstastic n wonderful way ya....do appreciate d time....n d time u have wif ur love one...not d must it is a guy...or gal....is ur frenz....family...^^

wao...this new year realy bad la...get so few angpau...aiz..kaka...stil gotta work...so cham lo...no ppl fetch me...aiz...i mean when open school...aiz...dun allow me to drive also...aiz....i fat fat fat alot lo..aiz....eat nonstop....n do nothing.. :-( i dun wan...dun wan get fatter....