One of my best friends, she sounds a bit weird last week. I dunno what happened to her. I know it is my bad that i got a long long time din contact her. Last time i said i will call her but i forgot. This sem really very busy, but still i did nothing. Aiz, going to die soon in final exam. She changed her blog address and dun wan to tell me after i knew about it. Actually i dunno that she was angry about this as i just cut off one of my blogs and i din even change my blog address. Just think that it is not necessary now to use 2 blogs and i think that, it is very difficult to separate ur love life to ur usual life. coz they are related. So, that is y i just use 1 blog now. She will never know that, actually i miss my friends very much. All. Form 5 gang, 4 gals gang and form 6 class gang. Sometime i viewed the photos that v took long long time ago. I know that it is impossible for us to know each other very well like last time v did. Coz now v r in different places, have different friends, study different courses and different environment. But i still, hold to the same thing. They are my best best friends. I wont forget about the time being and memories that v had, never ever. I dunno why she is that sensitive. Just a small matter i thought. But now, everything is ok i guess. Hope that she will be fine.
有好长好长的一段日子我没写我的部落格了..好忙好忙..忙到没什么心情去写..不知道为什么,这个学期的时间很不够用..感觉每天都有在做很重要的东西,都很有成就感的在做功课之类的..可能也是因为拍拖的关系吧..天天都想见他,错了,应该说无时无刻都想见他..但就如每个人都知道的那样..一段感情不是那么容易维持,偶尔会吵架,冷战..最常应该是为了小事不爽对方吧..情侣都这样.. 发现自己很爱他,为了他,我真的觉得自己变了很多..不可以说变不好了,应该说,变得比较会迁就人了吧..害怕失去这段感情..我真的能为他做很多很多..我们冷战时,我会忍不住想要结束冷战结果跑到去找他..能为了找他,走好远好远的路..我不知道为什么虽然短短的时间,但我就已经爱到那么深...不知道理由..可能觉得,眼前这个人,我真的不能放手..绝对不能.. 那天,我真的很伤心..不知道为什么我们谈到老公老婆的事情..他说了一句,你不是曾经是别人的老婆吗?我的心很痛..我说,对不起..我只是一双旧鞋..一双别人用过的鞋..这是我改变不了的事实..觉得他有点在意..虽然说他对我说对不起了..因为他觉得他说错话了..但其实我觉得那是事实..只是从他口中说出..我的心很痛..我知道自己没什么好..又笨又肥又呆,有时还傻傻的..但我告诉他说,你没有可能会找到像我那么爱你的人了..因为我真的真的很爱你.. 我不知道为什么我好像总是给不到他安全感..可能是因为他是个比较不善于表达的人..很多事情,我都不能了解他的看法..不能理解..直到事情发生后,吵架或者冷战后,才更加了解对方的想法..虽然,我们之间会发生一些小事情..但我相信,只要我们都愿意,一定能解决的..因为,我们都爱对方..希望他不会轻易的放开我..
Recently, really so so so busy. Hiding in seminar room for most of the night. Busy for eca stuff, assignments, presentation, tutorial presentations, tutorials, this and tat... but dun think i did revision le. swt. Important sem. Being successful or failure person, this sem will determine. Mayb not so serious, but definitely a better or worse way for my future. tough or easy? for me, i think both are tough. but one may be more interesting- accountancy. At least improvement must be made. Finding enthusiastic maggie..old maggie..:) gambateh!!
going back to singapore tonight! busy packing, actually my mum help to squeeze everything inside, thought nothing much to bring but at last full till bao zha.. going to take bus tonight, alone, sienz, nothing to do.. cant sleep well everytime in bus.. so cannot let myself take nap now, if not, more cham in bus.. so pity my rabbit toy, being forced to be sardine in my luggage.. got to sayang her back when i reach ntu.. pity gal.. very heavy ar..like the first day i reach ntu..tat heavy..aiz..dunno how to carry it to my room..take lots of time.. hope i wont wake all people in my block up..lol..evil >< going to eat domino pizza later..wao..nice nice..keke..last meal in msia be4 i go to sg.. hope tat i wont homesick la later..miss my home and family.. will back soon in 1 week++ time.. new sem..new life..must find my way to study..not blur like last sem..self commitment..
I did very bad in my last sem, bad till I cant accept it at tat moment. Mayb singapore standard is too high for me, or mayb Im really too slack last sem, my study way/method is wrong, not efficient either. I should start to change already. Many said they did badly in last sem, but turned out the result is very good in my opinion. I think i would not be able to score tat well no matter i spend all my time in studies. I know my standard, this is wat i can tell. By the way, i wont give up. must find my way to study the best, and enjoy the happiness of learning like wat papa said. If maggie chong din change, this is how she will act like, not giving up, and continue to fight against the things tat i fear. i will love them in this sem. love them from the heart. uni life should be fun, interesting. i should not be influenced much. Sem 2, Come on..
this sem break..i went many places..juz a short month that i had, i went to penang, bring my frenz around ipoh with my ntu frenz..eat nonstop..until i get very fat now..sweat..a memorable trip and the first trip i had with them..keke..hope tat next time v can go again, and mayb farther place? after tat i went genting with my secondary school ji mui gang..not bad not bad..but genting really too few ppl..aiz..dislike this feeling, very busy then super busy...then after tat yau too free..aiz..miss my ntu frenz..so sienz...but dun wan to study..kaka...sleep at home all the time..no choice..help!! fat fat fat!!