today i wonder y i becum a failure i myself also din realise it...really one...i m damn sad...wif my result...today...although all my sub pass...but this is not only wat i expect...i hope i can get better than all this...but i already quite satisfy wif my account mark...as this time i really dunno how to do....but stil can get 48...consider enuf already...=.= i get know one of the guy...get damn high mark for his math...swt.....=.=''' then only i wonder...how bad n lousy i m...last time in form 4 n 5 also din like this...now only i know i already getting lazy n more lazy....really have to take action to improve my account,math, pa n econ as well...aiz.... if next year this time only i regret i think everything is fate...but now...all the result r controlled on my own hand...jia you...maggie...dun keep on working n playing in this long holidays... WORK HARD STUDY HARD BEAT THE BEST N BE THE BEST...^^
i went to tesco xtra today...wao.........very very big...no wonder is biggest tesco in m'sia....walk until my legs also tired....wheeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyy.....nite i went to a big big restaurant to have...wif relatives n dad frenz....then...i was forced to sing k in my dad frenz house...in front of 10++ ppl...=.= shy nia....after go home n chat wif ying n frenz....finally all solved la....consider la...i cried again nia...too happy...n touch....ying said wil try to discuss wif ling...n solved...i hope so...really get it...i really aprreciate it one...I LOVE U ALL.......MUAX MUAX MUAX...^^
说到父母，不知道是不是人大了接触的人多了，总觉得许多朋友与他们的父母感情都不是很好，就比如说他们不会一起吃饭，不会一起出街，家不像一个家，就有如我们写国语作文时常会用到的，家很像只是一个用来睡觉的地方，一点感情都没有。。。 很多人更因此而不爱回家，喜欢到处逛街，宁愿花多点时间陪朋友都不爱回家。。。其实父母应该为此检讨检讨。。。许多父母用错了方式来爱儿女。。。他们以为只要严训地教儿女，一旦儿女犯了错，他们就只会严厉地责骂以及处罚他门。。。而儿女做对了事，并没有给于适当赞赏或者鼓励。。人都是一样的，总希望被别人认同，被人觉得自己做的事是对的。。但许多父母却很吝啬，不肯赞赏子女。。。 今天，我看到了我二哥的博客，觉得他说得很有道理。。我的父母与别人的不同，他们很为子女牺牲，他们永远把子女放第一，他们永远疼爱子女多过疼爱他们自己。。只要对子女前途有帮助的，无论花多少钱，他们都不在乎，为的只是子女。。。 还记得今年年头的我很不听话，很叛逆，常做出一些令爸妈担心以及伤心的事，还令到妈妈她哭了，我真的很后悔，为什么当时的我那么忍心做出令我妈伤心的事呢？当时的我，在当兵时，我们常上弟子规的课，每次老师说故事都令我感动得落泪，父母重视处处为我们着想，我时常都很庆幸为什么自己那么幸福呢？不用为金钱而烦恼，吃好穿好读好，身为一名学生的我，只需要做好我的本分，读好书，考好成绩就好了，其他的都留给父母来做来解决。。。。 我非常非常相信，凡事都有因果，我相信自己今世能够那么幸福，一定是前世的我做了很多好事。。。虽然我的家庭并不是很富有，但绝对是充满的爱爱爱。。。。我真的觉得自己非常幸福，虽然最近和朋友之间除了些问题，但我知道他们还是很像以前那样很爱对方，只是环境上的改变大家都还没能适应。。。我有一个很爱我的家，很爱我的一帮朋友，还有哥哥呢。。。。。 希望大家都能像我一样幸福。。。乘着还有时间，赶快做出改变吧，令你身边的人都感受得到幸福。。。。
wao...it is a nice party..that i nvr had be4....so funny...coz they r lots funny ppl...talk funny things...until i laugh alot...keke...nonstop...wakaka...especially fishead n chuan....make me laugh nonstop.... although already transfer school but stil hapy can gather wif them...but not so fren lo....got a big gap tim...but stil happy la....so weird oh...nanas gor gor wil burn chicken wings n hotdog tim....i thought he said very hot....he juz burn n burn...eat few only...scare getting sick gua... n whee ching...miss her lots....so hapy to c her.....T.T she is my best fren in sam tet class....i feel she is so pity..coz i think v wil get better tim..if i din transfer school....nanas nam n seng stil dance tim...so gao xiu....funny nia......... in conclusion it is a nice party....n thx asking me go oh....thx nanas gor gor fetch me also....keke....^^
she sent me a msg today...this is the conversation...
- ying : wei stil angry ar? i ald admit my mistake...wat should i do more?
- qi : you should change it u know? v really din c any improvement or d effort of changing it...u should think of it...y everytime d same prob occur...
- ying : u said i din change...i have ald change my bad temper lo...n yesterday i behave more better than ling le...u got many interaction wif me meh dat i always do that wrong things?
- qi : already change? den y yesterday u stil say dun like that ar...i angry nia? wait...i wan to ask is who ask others out first? is who ask us out?
- ying : ling ask teh 2 cum out i really didnt know...i yesterday morning told her dat u cum den she say teh got cum...actually the other din promise to cum de...dat day he say he wanna follow us de...eh...i not whole day din choi u all le...u kindly rmb in bowling i got choi u but u c ling got or not....dun 2 much BULI me le...i not easy to buli wan...reali make me angry..
- qi : that means u r stil not admit u r wrong la? u know y three of us angry about u? coz v k u...fren wif u...ling not so fren so it is quite difficult to tell her...u dun und...
- ying : ya, laz nite i think about it...i share wif my sister y u all treat me like that but not ling...juz coz i know u all k me...so i have ald admit my wrong..wat should i do now tell me..i really dunno wat m i gonna to do...dun make me so stress...cant tahan la..
- qi : actually xuan n kang almost ok...but u really have to change it...u must k more about dem..try to listen their words if correct then change urself...try to ask dem wat d prob la....not only me...i m damn sad c u 3 like that...i m really sad...u should realise y d prob always happen on u....
- ying : ya...i sent 2 dem but din reply...haiz..mayb u din notice ling now more fren wif teh...i also din angry juz let it b...thx for caring me...ya..i know sumtime u angry me more coz v r more frenz...but u know i yesterday nearly wanna knock by a car...i really angry y angry till so horribled...no body bother me r ALONE!!
- qi : no body bother? i mai ask u walk wif us...how i know wat happen to u...=.= i also dunno wat to say ald...den u got notice i m alone then? when i talk to u in food court u din even listen to me n keep on talking...dun always juz think u r pity only...d other also..
- ying : but u all juz pretend like i m not exist...i said all da thing out not i wan u all to sympatic me u know ga i hate sumbody pity me...haiz...dun argue la....i m tired of it...
- qi : u r tired then i am not tired? same prob keep on happening...i think u now r not going to solve d prob...so v got nothing to say now...find me ven u really know d prob....
TODAY IS A SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD.........DAY.....T.T
today hui xuan n i went to sam tet to visit our fren....then v all go 4 bowling....ling,ying,xuan,kang,me,n some of their classmates.....after that...v went to food court n had our lunch....i wonder y...they chat nonstop...din choi us...i m damn sienz...i dun like the feeling of being ignored...being isolated...i hate lonely....
until finish our lunch they stil talk nonstop....T.T
din bother about me, xuan n kang....T.T
they date us out to c they chat? =.=''' i m damn sad.....they thought it is funny taking bus to sam tet? crossing road very syok? v also miss them....v wanna chat wif them....v wanna know how r they recently...not juz listen wat they chat....they can chat anytime in class one la...y? y? v juz go out one day long time....they like this...ignored us....
then v made a cold war...aiz......................i wonder y all this happen......
after that ling called...she said she date her classmates out de...so she got the responsible to chat wif them...n not leave them......she said she dunno ying date us....=.=''''
i feel very very very very sad.....i wonder the big gang will still carry on? or one day...wil break up? all ppl got their own way?
i dunno i dunno...........i juz know i m very very very very very angry...=.='''
god help help me....